Snowy driveway between houses with footprints leading to the road.
Source: K.Eslah

If Only I’d Get Stabbed

Kimia Eslah

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I think I could get in touch with my feelings better if someone stabbed me.

A psych experiment — that didn’t end in murder — so I could test my theory.

Ever since starting meds, which have (graciously) stopped my desire to die,

My range of emotions is contained by a dam, and I can’t enjoy a good cry.

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Kimia Eslah

Feminist writer and a queer woman of colour. Author of Sister Seen, Sister Heard (2022) and The Daughter Who Walked Away (2019). www.kimiaeslah.com